Thursday, August 11, 2011

All That Surrounds Me

Seeing 3D
I can be on the phone or doing some activity, when my brain suddently decides to see everything in 3D.  I can't ever seem to replicate it, it just clicks on randomly.   From my living room, my kitchen is suddenly on a downhill slope, and the dishwasher becomes stunning.   The countertop is a slice of space layered upon other slices and everything has dimension.  The walls, the floors, it all is wide from where I stand, and then narrows down, down to the point I am looking as if in a tunnel of space.  I always go back to that famous Van Gogh painting of his little bedroom in Arles.  The way the chair legs meet the floor, and the pictures on the wall seem to lean over his bed, that is what my room becomes; odd, but beautiful, everything a bit unfamiliar and out of context.  I get these moments infrequently and they are usually when I am alone in my home.  Maybe that is where my binocular brain feels safe to come out and explore!  I am less afraid now of being whole.  I used to hide behind the corners of my eyes.  What a wonderful place to be when I can see in 3D - I am immersed!

Have you ever been away from your home for a period of time and then came back to see that something was different?  A shelf, a closet, whatever it was.  My mum used to always be changing things in our home, moving pictures and changing the mantle decorations.  When I would go away to school or on vacation or whatever, I remember coming home and seeing the same thing in a completely different way...  That is how it feels when my mind turns on my binocular vision...everything is the same, but completely different at the same time.  Objects are resting in new ways, chairs are standing at strange angles...  I have gone back to childhood books like, Alice in Wonderland and Peter Rabbit with a whole new appreciation.  Peter Rabbit does a lot of things in space!